Fade Away – May Free Choice

I had a dream

Where skies were blue

And days were bright

I had a dream

where no one had a clue

But everything was all right

We took long walks

And talked till half past midnight

About all our crazy thoughts

And how we’d hold on tight

I never thought

When I’d wake up

It’ll all be gone

My dreams to dust

I never thought

Skies would be grey

And all the faces,

They’d  f  a   d     e       a     w     a        y 

They keep telling me

You have a lot to learn

Chapters to read

And pages that are waiting to be turned

But what if we

Froze the clock and went crazy

Just for tonight

We’ll run away

And set ourselves free

I never thought when I’d wake up

It’ll all be gone

My dreams to dust

I never thought

Skies would be grey

And all the faces

They’d f  a   d     e       a     w     a        y 

But then again,

We’re living in this silly world

All our hopes and dreams

They burn

But then again

We’re living in this crazy world

Where our joys and cries

Are left unheard

And we f  a   d     e       a     w     a        y 

All our dreams

just keep on f  a   d     i       n        g             a             w              a                       y 

 

While writing this piece, I had one of those moments. That moment when you’re really mad at society and the way it is. That moment when you rip away the skin of this world, and the rough edges are revealed. Well, the emotion I had, I wrote it down. Out came this piece. It starts out happy, but after a few lines, the dark side of the world and society begins to creep up. The person, or narrator, realizes this, and the poem, then, is about this realization. I really enjoyed writing this piece, because I felt like I had a strong voice. And I don’t have that in a lot of pieces. Many people can relate to this, I believe and I really like that. I like when my readers are able to relate to a piece at another level. I really wanted to emphasize the “fading away” aspect of this poem. It really adds on to the meaning and message of it.

 

 

In Her Eyes – Bow View Manor Writing

 

A smile was planted on her face

Her sea-green eyes glistened in the sun

She sat beside the window

Drinking a hot cup of tea

 

Feeling the warmth of her fragile hands

The excitement as she shows us her floral pants

Sadness in her eyes as she talks about her past

In that moment, time moved fast

She grew up in the north of Edmonton,

with young dreams of hopscotch and ice cream.

Life was just as it was in the iconic film Greece.

Dancing, singing and jazz music all around.

Working as a cashier for many years.

Bringing joy to people around her with a smile.

Her values stay as strong as a rock.

Her religion, family, and dignity is an everyday reminder to be a better person.

Her past is filled with strands of contentment

Although she has dealt with the thorns of this world

And now

The rose rests in her hands

It is truly a story to tell

Love hurt her and broke her down

But she stayed only for the hope that it’ll all change

For decades thorns peeled through her skin  

As she helplessly watched the petals flutter down

And die out

Her kids brought her inspiration through bumpy roads

She gave all she had and went through hell just for them.

Then one day it all changed

She let go of the lifeless thorns

And out grew a beautiful rose

Another love she found

Although still old, love gave her a second chance

She was head over heels for a man who treated her the way she should have

She is here today, better than ever

Showing off her rose colored manicure and floral pants

Still caring for herself as well as others

She is a woman who is selfless, caring, loving and welcoming.

Her story deserves to be told

 

Jane T. is a very wise woman who has been through a lot. She has tasted the bitterness as well as the sweetness of this world, which led to a very experienced life. The rose in this poem symbolizes her love. The thorns of the first rose were her husband. He, in her words, was a very bad husband, but a good father. She stayed with him for about 30 years because of her kids, then finally left him. That’s when she let go of the thorns in this poem. And the new rose that grew out, was when she found another love.   

 

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Love, Loss, and Longing

Many people don’t know about the love, sorrow, longing, and grief Rumi lived through. The mystery behind his inspiration, is a mystery that, to this day, has not been uncovered. Rumi is known for his poems about love. But for who? The disappearance of his other half is a story that still seems to be hidden under all of his light-hearted pieces. His longing and grief is clearly shown in his writing, but there is a heartbreaking story that led Rumi to writing such beautiful poems. It led him to become the best-selling poet in America right now, thousands of years after his death. Jalal Ad-Din Rumi is internationally known for being a highly influencing writer, but not the reasoning and inspiration behind it.

Rumi, a persian scholar, went through many hardships and experiences that lead to him writing. His death occurred in the 1200’s but he is still seen as an amazing writer to this day. He uses simple, everyday words, however, they come out in a twisted and beautiful way. And the reason for his art, is the name of a man that meant everything and more to Rumi: Shams Tabrizi. His disappearance had a terrible toll on Rumi, and the result of this was his writing. “The beauty you see in me is a reflection of you.” Rumi had seen Shams as a father figure, a role model. Shams’ perspective on life was one that Rumi longed for ever since he met Shams. In order to understand Rumi’s writing, one must first understand his grief and longing for Shams. Why did Rumi love Shams so much? And how did he disappear? These are questions that need to be answered, for Rumi.

“There is nothing I want but your presence. In friendship, time dissolves.” It was November 20th 1244 when Rumi first met Shams in the streets of Konya. His overwhelming personality instantly led Rumi to be inspired. His views of the world and life, in general, revealed to Rumi the beauty in mystery. From there, Rumi and Shams spent most of their time together, leading them into friendship. This was also the time when Rumi began to write. Most people don’t understand their connection, for this was even hard for the villagers to wrap their minds around. This resulted in threats from people towards Shams. Each day, Rumi and Shams’ friendship grew, but so did the jealousy. They spent a lot of time together, until the day of Shams’ disappearance.

“I went inside my heart to see how it was. Something there makes me hear the whole world weeping.” 1247, was the year Rumi’s other half had suddenly vanished. His role model, his companion, was nowhere to be found. After waiting for 40 days without any news, he proclaimed that Shams had died. It is believed, that ever since that day, Rumi only wore black. He went through a tremendous amount of grief, resulting in the form of his writing. He didn’t intend on writing poetry, or writing anything at all. However, after Shams’ death, the only way of healing that his mind could come up with was writing. So each poem that Rumi wrote after his death, he signed Shams’ name on the bottom of each one, in his honor.

“Don’t run away from grief, o soul. Look for the remedy inside the pain. Because the rose came from the thorn, and the ruby came from a stone.” After a couple of years, Rumi came upon a beautiful garden full of hundreds of flowers, each one a little different than the other. It reminded him of Shams, and how much he loved nature. This was when Rumi began writing more optimistic poems. He learnt that through Shams’ death, he had become a great writer, as well as a great human being. Shams taught Rumi that every experience is, indeed, worth writing, and Rumi held onto that, everyday after that.

40,000. That is the number of poems Rumi had dedicated to Shams, through his love, loss, and longing for him. All of these poems were made into a book called Divan Shams-e-Tabrizi. And at the end of each poem, instead of writing his own name, Rumi wrote Shams, in his honor. Shams’ perspective on life was one that truly inspired Rumi. His love for life, nature, and the art of writing, had turned Rumi into the essential poet he is today. Although Rumi was able to get through the loss of his friend, Shams always had a place in his heart. And we thank them both today, for the amazing writing that has been brought to us. This is the story of the most influencing poet. This is Rumi’s story. The love, loss, and longing he had for Shams, had turned him into the beautiful poet we know. He will always be an inspiration, and an essential part of the poetry world. This is the sad reality of a beautiful human, Jalal Ad-Din Rumi.

B is for Bookshop

Assignment:  Write about bodies and body language. Write about different parts of the bookshop and how they are treated. Notice how people touch each book and avoid touching. Write about what people do to books and have done to them. Follow one person and record what they do. Later, rewrite this as a set of actions or instructions to an understudy.

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It glowed brightly.

I remember staring at it from a distance. My heart melted with excitement. My eyes glowed with amusement. I walked inside, inhaling the slightly vanilla smell of the bookshop. Hundreds of books surrounded me. The shop was divided into sections of genres and different types of books. There was a person standing in front of each section. It’s amazing how much books can tell you about someone. My legs walked towards the poetry section.

I had fallen in love.

My mind was overwhelmed by all the poetry books around me. After a hard time deciding, I slowly lifted up a book, flipping through the pages. It had a light earthy smell to it with a hint of almonds. Each page felt so smooth and new. All of the poems were written out in such a unique and beautiful way. Most of the pages were blank with only a few words on them. Words that can easily change your perspective on anything and everything.

Poetry is a gift.

It astonishes me how much can be said in a couple of words. Some poems had only four or five words, but somehow they all sounded so beautiful. It is truly a work of art. Maybe that’s why I love it so much. Poetry contains a bit of mystery, yet always makes so much sense. It leaves you thinking about all the possibilities.

It’s so simple, yet so complex.

Each poem has an endless amount of messages and meanings behind them, it only depends on who is reading them. Not only are the words meddled together to create art, but the way they are written. Sometimes a line only has one word. When you read it, it’s like your mind knows how it’s supposed to be read out. That word becomes emphasized, and somehow, sounds perfect.

My eyes stared.

I read each poem, instantly realizing how the poet wants me to read it and understand it. I didn’t realize that I was smiling. All I knew was that, at that moment, being surrounded by all these beautiful works of art, I felt happy, and understood. My eyes slowly scanned the bookshop. It was quiet, but the atmosphere was filled with a calm energy.

I was content.   

G is for Garden

Assignment: Create an inventory of the place and explore the vocabulary of a specific place. Write about flowers and trees as both nouns and verbs. Play with the words, stretch them, find out their multiple meanings, how malleable they can be. Note down how people in the garden use those words.

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I took a deep breath,

Inhaling the beautiful air around me

It smelt of jasmines and daisies

Along with a sweet essence of roses and forget-me-nots

Each flower looked a little different than the other

The bright sun settled onto the vibrant colours

Hundreds of contrasting shades

The grass was ever so slightly wet

A perfect lime green colour

The towering trees brought upon a huge shadow

Their leaves danced around in the calm breeze

I looked up towards the sky

Not a single cloud in sight

The light blue went perfectly with the yellowness of the sun

I slowly walked along the path

Not wanting to miss a single sight

Of this beauty

It was a whole other world

Everything was truly perfect

That was the only word to describe the scenery

My ears listened closely as leaves brushed each other

A feeling of tranquility flowed into my body

I took a deep breath

And smiled

For these couple of minutes

I had forgotten about the busy world

Time seemed to be frozen

In a perfect place

I continued walking

And landed upon a small waterfall

The water rushed down into a perfect stream

The air around it

Seemed to be a bit cooler

Every colour

Flowed together in a beautiful harmony

So did the sounds of the waterfall and breeze

As well as the sweet smells of different flowers

It was all so appealing to my senses

The day suddenly seemed brighter

I could feel the happiness of the flowers

As they lightly swayed side to side

Each one having its own unique and original colour

Lavender, lilac, cerulean,

Mint, sage, emerald,

Pumpkin, sandstone, gold,

Cherry, sangria, scarlet,

All so different

Yet so similar

Smiling,

I took a deep breath,

And stepped into the sunlight

I recently went to a breathtaking garden, and it just needed to be written out. So that’s what I decided to do. I tried my best to go in depth with all the senses to make the reader feel like they are actually in the garden. Instead of focusing on just the flowers, I made sure to write about everything you see in a garden. I wrote about the grass, trees, sun, sky, and more. This really helped with the imagery.  

F is for Funeral

Assignment: (Using C is for Cemetery) Create a map of the cemetery as you walk through it. Approach it as if it were a town or a village. Write about what goes on underground. Explore the past (the dead), the present (nature), and the future (this place in 100 years time). Start with the word “dead” and end your piece with the word “life” (or the opposite way round).

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Death

A word that shakes the very ground you stand on

A word that has control over your life

A word that can easily shatter your soul

I am scared of this word

This word that I try not to utter

For if I do,

I will have to face reality

This small word has a terrible toll on you

It burns out the very light that kept you from the dark

It turns your world upside down

Without a warning

Death

It will barge in

Without an invitation

He was carefree

He was content with his life

Maybe that’s why he’s not with us anymore

He was simply happy

Maybe that’s why he’s gone

It’s not fair

The good ones die first

I stood silently, holding back the tears

The atmosphere was dry and cold

I could feel the heaviness of the air around me

Loved ones weeping

Were the only sounds that my ears could grip onto

Everything else was silent

It was like for those few hours

The world had been shut down

Frozen

I was forced to soak in the dreadful taste of reality

I didn’t want to

I was in denial

I didn’t know him all that well

But something about my surroundings

Made me feel like I knew him my whole life

I was in a deep state of mind

Death

It grasped onto my mind

Thoughts rushed in and out

I didn’t know how to hold the tears back

He left behind his children

They were quiet

I stared at them

It was as if a wall had been built inside of them

They didn’t seem alive

He left behind his wife

Her eyes were swollen and red

She’d been crying for days

Her love is gone

He left behind his brother

His head pointed straight towards the ground

Trying to forget that his lifelong friend is not here anymore

He left behind so many people

Each one grieving in a different way

Death

A word that shakes the very ground you stand on

A word that has control over your life

A word that can easily shatter your soul

I am scared of this word

This word that I try not to utter

For if I do,

I will have to face reality

 

Sadly, I went to a funeral recently. It was extremely heartbreaking, and I just needed to write about it. This was a very different experience for me, and it was really hard to be there. Just seeing people cry and having to deal with what had just happened made the whole experience even harder. The man that passed away was my brother-in-law’s uncle. Rest in peace.

April Free Choice

Other Side

Our world sometimes demands

Change

Living in the shadows,

Light is all that the soul will crave

Living in the light,

A shadow, an umbrella,

is all that the soul will long for

Change

One will never truly understand

Ways of the other side

You must be in the sun

To feel its vibrant, warm colours

Settling onto your skin

You must step onto the darkened ground

To feel the lifeless breeze jagging

Through your clothes

Then, truly, will one’s soul be

Alive

Change is what your life demands

Listen to that voice

And take a step onto the

Other                                                                                                                                                                                 side

 

This poem has more than one meaning behind it. I wrote it without any idea towards how I wanted it to turn out, or what message I was trying to get across. I remember walking home from school, staring down at the sidewalk. Half of it was glowing with the sun’s light. The other half, however, had a shadow over it, due to a fence on the side. This, then, got me thinking, as I had to decide which side I wanted to walk on. It seemed weird at first, but then, I thought of it in a symbolic way, and all these thoughts and theories came to my head. So, right when I got home, I sat down, and began writing. The result was this poem. We have control over how we want to live, but we need to go through good and bad experiences to shape ourselves. It’s just a part of being human. Our experiences make us who we are. It’s great to always be happy, optimistic, and positive. However, there needs to be a break. This is where I got the idea of the “other side.” We learn by making mistakes, and a lot of times, people forget this. They forget that there is nothing wrong with falling down and getting hurt. It makes us the strong and brave people we are. Being busy all the time is perfectly fine, but there comes a time when all that our mind needs is a break. Contemplating and reminiscing is, in my opinion, essential for us to move on and learn from certain incidents. This is the message that I wanted to get across through this poem.

 

Our Adventure ~ Anecdote

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My heart felt like it had just slightly sunk. My hopes had collapsed. I had been waiting for this trip for the past month. I forced my eagerness to stay put, and finally when the day had approached to let it all out, I lost my chance.

“You just missed ‘em,” the woman at the front desk explained. We were to travel by coach busses. An hour drive to Kananaskis with my friends, the people I had spent this school year with. Today was supposed to be memorable. I sighed, turned around, and walked towards the door. My sister was standing in front of the car, her eyes squinting. The sun was shining towards her, the wind lightly brushing her hair onto her face. I looked away, forcing the tears back. I took a deep breath and walked towards her.

“The bus left,” I muttered.

“Are you okay?”

“Not really.”

She turned away for, what felt like, hours. No one spoke. I felt hopeless. She, then, suddenly walked over to the driver’s seat and swung open the door. “Get in.”

“Are we going home?” I asked. She didn’t speak. Confused, I opened the door, and slowly sat inside. She drove out of the parking lot, and onto the highway. My eyebrows narrowed in confusion.

“Home’s the other way,” I explained.  

“We’re not going home.”

“Where are we going?” She turned towards me, smiling.

“Kananaskis,” she said, excitedly. Our adventure had begun.

The radio blasted in my ears, as the cool breeze blew past my face. The sky was all shades of blue. There was no cloud in sight. The rays of the sun, ever so perfectly, settled on the towering mountains in the distance. And on the tips of each mountain, was a blanket of pure white snow. In one word, I would describe it as breathtaking.

By the time we arrived at Kananaskis, I had already eaten most of my snacks. As my sister approached the parking lot, I looked up and saw two busses that read “Coach Canada” on them.

“We found them!” I yelled.

“The busses, yea, but there’s no one here,” she pointed out.

“Maybe they started hiking.”

“Well then, let’s go.” She jumped out of the seat, slipped on her sunglasses, and walked towards a trail. Sighing, I put my backpack on, and opened the door. The sun was scorching hot. I breathed in the warm air around us, slowly stepping out onto the gravel. My eyes stared up at the huge trees, as faint sounds of birds chirping echoed through my ears. I followed my sister down the trail, amazed by the beauty of nature. The sun’s rays slightly shined through tree branches, as a light breeze rippled through our clothes.

“Do you know where we’re going?” I asked, slightly worried.

“As long as we stay on this path, we won’t get lost,” she explained. However, lost is exactly what we got within about twenty minutes of wandering on a “trail.”  And I realized this, when I thought I heard her stomach rumble.

“Was that you?” I asked. She stopped walking, and turned around to face me. Her eyes were widened and her voice, I could tell, was shaking.

“Shh, be quiet.” After a couple of seconds, there it was again.

“Groowwl..” The second time I heard it, the sound had gotten louder. This was the moment, I came to the realization that it wasn’t her stomach rumbling. It was the sound of a bear.  

We both turned our heads towards the growl. I couldn’t see the bear, but it was somewhere behind hundreds of trees.  

“Yell,” she suddenly ordered.

“Why would we yell?” I asked her, terrified.

“If the bear sees us two, we’ll be dead. But if we yell, it’ll think we’re bigger than it, and hopefully leave.” I wasn’t going to yell, until the moment the bear growled once more. I, then, opened my mouth, and screamed out random things. She did the same.

“I DON’T KNOW WHERE WE ARREEE!” She screamed, still trying to scare away the bear. We walked in all directions for the next couple of minutes trying to find a pathway, still shouting and hollering. She suddenly stopped and pointed towards a trail. We looked at each other, relieved. I froze in place, and the only sounds I heard were of the breeze and the birds. The bear had left. I sighed in relief, as we both walked towards the trail.

“We were about to die,” I pointed out.

“But we didn’t, that was fun,” she said, laughing. I glanced over at her, surprised. I had been terrified, she had been brave. The day was full of craziness, but I decided to laugh it off with her. I, then, stared into the distance, squinting my eyes.

“We found them!” I joyfully screamed. Small figures of people walked in our direction. I ran towards them, hugging my friends. At that moment, I realized that none of this would’ve been possible if it weren’t for my sister. I turned towards her, smiling.

“Thank you,” I mouthed.

“Your welcome.”  

February Free Post

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Being The Third Wheel
Being the third wheel
Is like me, my thoughts, and feelings are nothing to them
Like no matter what I do or say, I’ll always just be invisible
I try my best to convince my mind
That it’s a misunderstanding, everything will be alright
Deep inside, however,
Is a small voice telling me, “It will be this way forever”
So days slip away, and so does my smile
And it goes on this way for, what feels like, miles
I tell myself that this friendship is true and real
But I guess that is how it goes when you are stuck being the third wheel
You slowly begin to realize that your days are ruined
By the painful reality of always being excluded
They mean too much to your soul
To even think about letting them go
But I begin to change
The comfort and happiness inside of me fades away
So I take a deep breath
But the anger comes alive
It starts from my head
And travels down towards my spine
I think of all the times
They let me down
Like how they never had my back
When I would turn around
I keep reminding myself
That it wasn’t that long ago
When they stopped being there
Through high and low
So I finally stood up for myself
I tried to set myself free
I told them about how they would always laugh and have fun
But never with me
For months they took me for granted
For months I endured the misery
Now just when I took a stand
They suddenly want to come back to me
But I’ve grown stronger than before
I won’t let them continue the rhythm
I’ll say one thing, though
Stop playing the victim
Because I will not sit around
And be played like a fool
My heart and mind now know better
Than to ever again have trust in you
You see, I am enough for myself
I don’t need your regret
I am in a much better place
I won’t look your way again
I was locked behind a cage
But I set myself free
Now my days are filled with happiness
Take a look and you’ll see

This poem is about the way a past friendship had made me feel. The reason I decided to write it is because I’ve realized that many people can relate to it. Whether it be because they are going through something like this, or have gone through it. Through writing this piece, my initial goal was for this poem to be relatable. After writing it, however, I realized that I want readers to know, that being a third wheel, isn’t always a bad thing. I wanted to inspire and motivate others towards becoming stronger, and, simply, being their own friend. When writing this piece, I wanted to look at the negative and positive sides of being a third wheel. The poem, itself, has helped me realize the strengths we gain off of someone’s ignorance and rejection.